I feel selfish. There are so many people going through so much…serious stuff. People are really dying, people are hungry and starving, people are living on the streets. People have real problems and I have petty little issues…and I can’t deal with them. I have to go and cut myself up, hit myself, take countless pills, just to feel okay for a few hours. They deal with their problems, and I can’t deal with mine. I just hate feeling selfish…I hate being selfish! I’m going to start helping people I think. I just hate myself so much, and I can’t help it. I just want to die every night, but these people have hope, and I don’t. I hate myself, I’m a failure, I just want to be perfect…but I can’t be.
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